Wednesday, September 19, 2012

Stressed Out I Am



We are now at the final countdown to the big day.  Only 17 more days until the wedding and past time to get all the details finalized.  Since The Murph didn't want to hire a wedding planner, I am feeling more than a little stressed out.

"Why hire a wedding planner when we have plenty of time on our hands to plan and do things ourselves?" says The Murph.  That's all fine, but it seems like all the final details and planning have been dumped on me.    And have I mentioned before that I don't handle stress of any kind very well.  I get anxiety.

 I can handle the big picture, but when it starts to come down to the details, things get messy.

I've been so off the deep end lately that I don't even know what to blog about.  My brain keeps wanting to shut down.  I start doing mindless things like running 17 miles Sunday, listening to the same song 100 million times, napping.  

I could even swim laps for an hour at this point and not die of boredom.

I admit I am a little irritable and easily upset lately.  The Murph doesn't understand why.  He's more laid back than I am about these things.  He knows they will get done.

Somehow.

He said something today to me and I really don't remember what it was because it was that unimportant, but I got all upset.  I told him he just didn't understand how stressed out I am.

He laughed at me and said, "Stressed OUT!  About what?  We're getting married.  The bills are paid.  You don't have to work.  You have it made!  What do YOU have to be stressed out about?"

Later, he took this picture of me sitting out by the pool reading a People magazine just to reemphasize how "stressed out" I am because my life is just so hectic right now.



I call it creepy taking a picture of me from the kitchen window without my knowledge.  Good thing I had my top on!  I'm sure poor Kate wish she'd left her top on now that her boobs are published in French and Italian magazines.

I am a little worried about a certain topless, beach photo shoot I did several years ago.  The photos are on my old laptop which my ex stole.  Any day I might go online and see my own boobs plastered out there for the world to see.  Topless photos in the hands of a vengeful ex don't mix well.

However before you judge me, I told my mom about the photo shoot and she was cool with it.  I think she understood it was more of an" artistic" thing to do. What with the sunset and all the pretty background colors and sand and surf.

Today when I told The Murph I wasn't sure what I wanted to blog about, he suggested that I blog about my "impetuousness. "

Not exactly sure what that meant, I looked it up.


    im·pet·u·ous/imˈpeCHo͞oəs/

  Adjective:
  1. Acting or done quickly and without thought or care; impulsive.
  2. Moving forcefully or rapidly: "an impetuous flow of water".


I decided that he must want me to blog about what a strong swimmer I am.  I do move rather "forcefully", if not "rapidly" through the water.

I'm sure he didn't mean I am "impulsive" or anything like that.





12 comments:

  1. Lol. I'm sure the Murph actually said that. Most guys think it,but few are brave enough to say it. And dont worry about topless pics. So many girls do it now a days apparently. I wonder if Kate really had no idea a photog was near.

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    1. The Murph is very foolish. He will say anything! I guess he feels like he gets a pass for saying it since he's in the same boat as I am.

      I don't think Kate had any idea a photographer was near. Actually, not near, but with a telephoto lens zooming in.

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  2. I wouldn't worry about the topless pics. Jim is right. Lots of women do it now. And you are a complete hottie. So if anything, people would be all jealous of you.

    Hope your wedding goes smoothly for you both:)

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    1. Thanks Blanche! I guess whatever happens with those pics will happen. I was saving them for my future great grandkids to find long after I was gone and say, "Hey, here's Granny!! On the beach! Topless!!" :)

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  3. I'm with the others: don't worry about the topless pics. Easy to say but you have plenty of other things to deal with besides worrying about something that may/may not happen.
    I don't see you as impetuous...

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    1. You're right! I do have other things to worry about besides that. I don't see myself as impetuous either. I think the Murph just likes throwing big words around.

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  4. Everything will work out! Everything will be perfect whether it's the way it was planned to be or not. Starting down that aisle and looking up into that man's eyes and knowing this is the day you start the rest of your life with him... at that moment, the rest won't matter.

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    1. I need to be more laid back like the Murph. It's hard right now with only 2 weeks to go and we only had 2 1/2 months to plan and it's time to finalize everything. The details are the headache!

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  5. I envy your strong swimming capability. What I wouldn't give to be able to swim across the pool 5 laps like hubby (five years older)without getting winded halfway across on the first lap...
    Wasn't aware your wedding is so close. Congrats to you and Murph and take a few days before the wedding to just chill . ..

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    1. I'm a very slow swimmer but I can keep going for a long time. It's the endurance from biking and running that helps me aerobically in swimming I guess. Not that I've been swimming that much lately!

      The wedding is 2 weeks away! Can't believe it! This summer has flown by so fast!

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  6. Wow 17 days! Of course you are stressed. Weddings are stressful. Joyous and wonderful too but definitely stressful up until that moment when you walk down the aisle. That is when you will stop sweating the small stuff. And I include old embarrassing pics in "small stuff".



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    1. I do need to stop sweating the "small stuff!" I have a feeling this is going to be a hectic 2 weeks!

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